Hahaha! Kabobohan. Katangahan. Why do I keep on insisting myself on someone who’s not worthy anyway?! Hmmf. Di ko makita-kita yung para sakn kasi me harang ehh. Hahaha! :p One night, ewan kung anong nangyari. Sa sobrang pagod ko, I knelt down before the Lord saying, “Lord, ayoko na! Suko na ako, Lord, I surrender him to you. I surrender this feeling, yung talagang total tanggal na talaga Lord ha?! I can’t rely on my own strength, I am weak! Give me the strength to accept the things I cannot change *crying*. Lord, if ever na bibigyan muko ng love life, thank you Lord. Sana yung christian po, ibigay Nyo sya tomorrow Lord. Pero kung di mo will, sana walang mag-approach sa akin bukas at magpakailanman. “ Ohaaa, ako na ang demanding! HAHAHA *laugh-laugh!* then nakatulog na ako.
The next morning, super nanibago ako. Ang gaan ng pakiramdam ko. Woohoo! :) we ate our lunch together ng family ko sa labas, I was eating and me unknown number na nagtext. Nagulat at nataranta ako :3 “Lord, dba sabi ko kung walang magparamdam di mo will, eh ‘bat me nagtext?”
Nireplyan ko. Sabi nya he’s !^#%. Whaaataaa. He’s a guy. Di ako mapakali. Pagdating sa bahay, I prayed and opened the bible - 1 Corinthians 13! Hahaha. Lord, Ikaw na! Ayaw mo talaga na celibacy ako XD haha! then I thanked God and I told Him to guide me and sana wag na will ko ang masunod kasi I know my heart is deceiving. So I seek for His guidance again, it was John 17:22 “I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one.” HAHAHAHA! Lord, IKAW NA TALAGA! My will and His will are one because we are one! ;) I couldn’t help but cry because God has given me the chance to grow and be mature enough when it comes to love. ♥ Syempre dapat approval talaga ni God ang i-seek ko! ;)
I texted him back, nireplyan ko. Conversations all along. Hahaha. Nalaman ko na he’s a christian - we have the same belief. I laugh so hard that my mother was annoyed. Hahaha! LORD, IKAW NA IKAW NA TALAGA! Lahat ng hiningi ko sa prayers ko yun ang naging outcome - answered prayers! Mmm. I was sooooooooo happy knowing that all the pieces are falling back into their proper places ~ I don’t know kung anong patutunguhan nito but I will always be relying on God for guidance ;)
Indeed, we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to His purpose. - Romans 8:28 Ü
